my life is at rock bottom as I speak, things couldn't get any worse, I hope! I'm at a total deadend right now.

 

by the way, I'm a newbie here with a very beat up 97 3.1 monte!

 

I feel that.

Ive explored the very bowels of depression since I was 11 trying to dig deep enough to punch thru to the other side.

Not everyone is capable of contentment. If everyone was happy, then nobody is. It is my darkness that allows others to enjoy the light.